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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
9:42 PM
i dont know why or how it did. i just felt my heart drop 30 stories. nobody knows why.im not planning on telling anyone. anyway hardly anyone reads this blog anyway, so, im somewhat safe.
Monday, September 21, 2009
10:59 PM
hey all!
im finally posting after what seemed like lightyears i guess. haha okay isal is lame. -.-
well, alot's been happening lately. to summarise it all, here we go:
1) EXAMS ENDED!
2) i got attached to a starhub shop at lioncity for ITP. 6-day week. 11am - 9pm. -.-
3) Hari raya. celebrated quite nicely. just missed the chance to talk to my favourite cousins. nvm, when we visit them, i'll talk as much as i can.
4) i lost weight? i wont say how much
5) i need a trumpet for concert!
that's pretty much it.
well, all i've got to say is, work's a bore. or in this case, attachment. well, i dont mind the idea of being sent to a handphone shop where i mostly just get to do whatever i want. but for 10 hours? dudes and dudettes, it gets boring. okay when i said anything, i didnt mean it literally okay. anything as in, whatever work allows us to do. like, read, listen to music, stone, read, entertain customers and what not. pretty much it. cheap and forced labour. cuz i dont have i choice. if i fail this, its like failing a bloody module = i have to re-DO it next year. pay = $500/mth. shit.
hari raya? well, not as fun as past years cuz this year, instead of having an open house on the first day, we had an open house for those whom we would go visiting with, then go out together. yesterday of course. collection-wise, all i can say is, "haha".
hmmm.. what else. i dont know, nothing much really. lol.
things just happened at the wrong time. alot of things.
oh, im halfway through to getting my license!! =)
some things are better kept withinto prevent from hurting those whom you loveits best to stop the thoughts from coming incuz we never know when we're gonna leave the worldpeople say you only treasure something/someone when its gonesometimes these words speak for themselvessometimes you just gotta think for yourselfwhat have you done, what have you said, what can be doneto just cancel whatever has happened in the past.im missing you more by the day. just thought you should know.
Faisal
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
11:52 PM
11:39 PM) yanhong ;: UNCLE!
hellos
(:
(11:39 PM) Isal** One Stro: hey heyy :)
(11:39 PM) Isal** One Stro: i wont be coming back as often starting from today ready
the other alumnis also
(11:40 PM) yanhong ;: why uhs?
(11:40 PM) Isal** One Stro: that conductor lor
(11:40 PM) Isal** One Stro: he hates the alumni obviously
he didnt want us to perform for ngee ann but took noobshits
he didnt want us to go for cruise
he disallows me from sitting in with main band for combine
(11:41 PM) Isal** One Stro: firdaus also
so, yeah
ive talked to the others, we agreed not to go back
so he'd feel happier
(11:42 PM) Isal** One Stro: well, also the fact that he told the band that us alumnis shouldnt be thanked cuz we didnt do anything for you guys
im not being sensitive
(11:42 PM) Isal** One Stro: but if thats what the fuckface wants then he'll get what he wants
anything happen to the band, dont come calling us
(11:43 PM) Isal** One Stro: we've had enough of him already
(11:43 PM) yanhong ;: wth.
*(11:45 PM) Isal** One Stro: anyway we also agreed that when we go back, its only beneficial to ourselves cuz we're practising and not helping you guys, cuz we cant. he wants the whole band to himself, he can have it. so all i can say is sorry. on behalf of all the alumni. not to er, but to you guys
that was my convo with yanhong. my junior, current band major of AIband. the whole convo conveys what myself and the other alumnis feel. and the fact that some of the members have already said things like, "come back for what? cannot even play with us". "dont need come back la".. and all that crap. so, yeah. the only thing i have left to do is return the mace. which i would this sat or sunday i guess. well, goodbye to AIband, really. the conductor can have you guys for all i care. just dont call us back when no one else wants to help.
2:20 AM
hey guys.
just dropping by to say i miss someone very dearly. =(
no, its not who you ALL think it is.
haha only some know =)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
12:40 AM
parents + dragonboat = not very good outcome.
i dont wanna talk about it but it really blew my top off today. i kinda like just gave my parents a cold shoulder today. and my dad's behaviour has really just pissed me and my bro off totally. i dont wanna talk about this. so, yeah.
Sunday, August 09, 2009
11:35 PM
hey hey..
sorry i havent been posting much. been busy with loads of things.
studies
projects
reports
training
more training.
well, yesterday i met someone in the morning before going for training. by the next statement i think you guys may know who.
she wanted to return my jacket, which i think, has been with her since february. end of february.
and so, i took it, and we somehow hardly spoke.
i saw her, took my jacket, and this happened
me : going out har?
her : yea
me : haha okay bubbye
her : bye
as i walked past starbucks, towards the escalator to the MRT station, i thought, hmmm is she okay?
she looked rather upset.
she looked quite mad.
actions speak louder than words you know.
and okay. all that aside.
i went home after training, took out the jacket, the first thing that i realised, was the scent it gave.
it was HER scent, somewhat.
the scent ive been smelling for like, hmm, 2 years? not the whole 3 years.
and everything just flashed back inside my mind.
i knew i just stood rooted to the ground for like, let see, 7 seconds?
the scent was just, i dont know. the sweetest thing ive smelt in the past few months.
ya! i know!
you guys are gonna tell me, get over her. bla bla this bla bla that.
i am.
just that i cant erase my memories right?
i dont wanna erase good memories.
she has left many footsteps in my life.
maybe thought me a few things in life.
mainly, she brought happiness into my life.
when she left, i only let her take away the bad memories we've had. she knows how to throw them away.
yes, im sure she's happy with who she's with right now but i think i should let the whole world know that i truly, dearly, miss her. and if youre reading this, just know okay.
just know that youre still here, in my heart.
you might think im crazy but i actually wore the jacket to sleep last night.
and to be frank, memories of how we used to hug each other to sleep just sort of brought me back to those times.
i teared.
yes, i went to sleep tearing.
yes, that much. i miss you that much.
so, all im gonna say is, thank you for everything.
thank you for the time we've spent.
thank you for the love we've shared.
thank you for everything.
Muhd Faisal + Soen wee
21st September 2005 - 14th February 2009
long time huh =)
alot of obsticles along the way
Saturday, August 01, 2009
3:17 PM
you know,
it kinda sucks to have to skip training especially if youre all hyped up about it?
my mum's already beginning to make noise about it. so i didnt have a choice.
call me mummy's boy for all i fucking care. but if i go against her, i face the risk of getting a cold shoulder for the next one week. she'll probably not even talk to me for fuck. thats one problem.
even my dad's making noise. "everyday come home 11pm you call me to fetch you. you think im your driver is it?"
in my head, im saying, YOU THINK I WANNA WAKE YOU UP AT 11PM AT NIGHT JUST TO FETCH ME?! I CAN FUCKING WALK HOME MYSELF BUT EVERYTIME I DO THAT, YOU JUST SCOLD ME AND SAY, WHY DONT CALL ME?"
fair to me?!
FUCKING HELL NO.
and what? my mum's saying i dont even have the time to study?! EXCUSE ME!
who was the one who said how proud she was about my results?
yea i did flunk ONE paper. the paper which the WHOLE fucking class did horribly badly for. come one lah.. half of us failed. the highest was 69. cheebong.
and my race is in september. enough time if i keep skipping training like this?! NO!
worst part is, my ATTACHMENT is in september, GIVING me LESS time to train in that month.
seriously, fucked up. i come home every night at 11pm and i go into my room telling myself, i have to study for at least half an hour. which i do.
nevermind. i dont wanna fret anymore. sucks balls
Saturday, July 11, 2009
10:10 PM
HELLO!
training today was quite relaxed. ran 2.4k for warm up then proceeded to pull ups. 8 sets of 10. then ran back to the sea sports center and got onto our boats. today was the first time the juniors saw the coach. there were 3 boats, 2 junior boats, 1 senior SP boat. we had to mix around, between seniors and juniors.. today focused on technique. therefore, not much of rowing. so, train train train, row row row.. corrections here and there. then debrief and dismissal.
quite dissappointed now though. i cant go for training tml cuz i have family gathering in the afternoon. have to go. sadded. so i guess i'll see you guys on tuesday.
